Adlin & Denise; Queens of Charm and Charisma.

Okay.. I lied.

Im not sick of blogging. Im terrified of blogging in the other blog. But ive got to blog. Too much thoughts. Too much rants. So here I am again, living a lie once more. At least I feel more secure here. And till I get my sense of security in place, far-out- will be OUT.

I had planned to blog a wonderful positive entry last friday. But, my mood has changed over the weekend. The last skin was a bit too dark for me. So I changed it to this temporarily since my school computer cant read the blog skins thingy properly. Owells. I'lll change it again once Im using another computer.

I need to focus. focus focus focus. Exams are coming up but im so distracted. I din even finsh doing wat I planned to do during the weekend. TATS how under-focus I am now. This sounds ridiculous even to me. But im scared. And its not because of the exams. Im frightened of the prospects. Im frightened of whats to come. Now, I really really wish im home.

The term 3 results are coming out this Wednesday, which adds to this turmoil.

For once, I really really dont know what to do. I dont want to hurt another person anymore. But i cant do it. I cant pretend that everything is alright because its not. Its too big an issue for me to delude myself. I don want to do this. I don feel good. Its unfair.

But theres just this problem. I feel that Im compelled to do it. I owe it out of respect to my tuition teacher at the very least.